retardation is at its best when i was with B earlier; he was telling me how he was looking for resources for a friend of his who was feeling down after an abortion she had - and i went:
"then what happened to the baby after that?"
i don't think i'll forget that expression B had for awhile.. haha.

B, is probably the strongest person i've ever met in my life (so far).
maybe i shouldn't use such strong and definitive words since i don't even know him all that well, but.. i've never met anyone like him.
i feel stronger just in his presence really.. and (cliche but) i've learnt that there is strength in letting go, and wealth and luxury need not be synonymous.

not B's words but i think it pretty much summarized today - "no matter how you feel today, get up, dress up, and show up."
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was also kinda stuck in a rut the past week or so. the one thing i wanted to do was sleep. shirked all responsibilities as much as i could but only felt worse and worst.

dinner with BC made me feel that bit better and perhaps kicked me out of my haze a lil. was an impromptu thing but it did cheer me up and i do appreciate his offer of buying the meal.
little things.. but you don't know how much they mean to me.
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oh yes. and GG has left for melbourne. i don't think i'm feeling the effect of her departure, yet..
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i've got so much to learn..