faith is

seeing the invisible

hearing the inaudible

believing the incredible

thus, receiving the impossible.

i'm glad i've got you.

you; are driving me crazy.

trying to let it go and accept that perhaps its just you; your bluntness and penchant for speaking without thinking through what your words could effect. and perhaps, that it should mean nothing more than curiosity on your part.

but why did you have to ask me/say all these only when no one else was around?

i hate that you have the ability to do this to me.. and sway my feelings for you.
whatever it is, i'm holding on to the belief that it will all be better for you.

So much has changed.

Just 2 weeks ago I was eager and anticipating all that will come with work.

Things were going well, you were sending me to trainings, much as we were struggling with certain aspects of work we were all in it together.

Out of a sudden you’ve decided to throw in the towel and leave us.

Cant say we’re surprised cuz I guess its been a long time coming.

Yet I cant even place my emotions. Im not denying im horribly attracted to you. Its no longer just simple attraction but I really look forward to seeing you at work.

Im stil holding on to the hope that it has all yet to be cast in stone, that perhaps you’ll change your mind.

But… what will be, will be. I know you’ll do what’s best for yourself.

So thank you, E. for the good 3 months working for you.

Was afraid of getting closer to you physically yet somehow the distance was always drawn. There was no way of crossing that line.. im not even sure I want to because its you.

也许, 你就是我的有缘无分…

shall i say.. time flies, again?

we're already into february which means i'm 2 months into work -
its been good, really. despite the long nights last week and never-ending deadlines i'm enjoying work and learning.. in terms of professional and personal growth.

met people who are genuinely nice.. and in their own words: 照顾自己人.
thank you, W.


definitely looking forward to the days ahead; whatever it may bring.

attraction is but merely a feeling. there are greater things to achieve. just gotta draw that line... clearly.

never been one for new year resolutions - always believed that if we want something bad enough we'll do it no matter what; new year or otherwise.

so in a nutshell, 2011 has closed with many good memories: slogging through fourth year in school, completion of the thesis after toiling for months, finishing grad school, the anxiety of job searching, the anticipation while waiting for replies, korea trip, finally getting hired, making friends in the process of interviews, starting work at MWS..
2011's been a good year indeed.

2012 has been great so far, one month into the job and getting my feel of things and people. hopefully that our place will be up and running soon so that we'll all get in the job proper.

in some way, i'm really thankful for all that has happened so far.. but theres this constant nagging feeling that perhaps things may have turned out otherwise - better perhaps - should i have been more proactive in certain ways. yet opposed to the person i'm am.. should i change.. me?
i don't know.

in 2012, i want to be a healthier, better, more effective person. cheers.